I FINALLY finished salixbabylon's much belated birthday present. Sorry about the delay. Life has a way of bulldozing me these days. But this first section of the story is done, and the rest will have to be posted as it gets done but rest assured, this part is sufficiently climactic to satisfy even a greedy girl like Salix. *strokes and hopes to inspire greed greed greed* And don't worry, babe - I cooked it up just the way you like it - thinky, kinky and with a good dose of the raw...

This way to the thinky kink, in which McKnight decides it would be a good idea to have a part of his body taken care of in a way it has never been taken care of before, and Grimes has to wrap his head around the idea, before he wraps other things around, um, other things...

Psst, there is SHAVING involved... eventually.

Happy belated.... geez, it's really fucking belated, isn't it? This is practically a Happy Thanksgiving gift. Are you thankful for SMUUUUUUUUUUT?????

I knew you were.

I'm starting this new comment thread because I'm uploading some new material over the next little while, and I like a fresh start.

Hey there, I'm Heart of Slash. Nice to meet you/see you again. I hope you enjoy my work. Even if you don't, please let me know what you think, or we could just be polite and discuss the weather. I'm Canadiaan after all. I excel at that.

mistressmarilyn has a top ten vampire movies list up, and I figured I'd do one of my own, just for a larf.

( Vampires are for FUN )

Now, why isn't there a movie in which Karl Urban is a vampire? In which he sucks Ewan McGregor? I'd pay to see that. Many times over.

There are many more vampire flicks to enjoy. Explore. Delve. But most of all, have FUN.

Ages back (and I'm embarrassed about how long ago it was) griffndor requested that I re-post this , and I should have, but I couldn't find it on my computer, and then I found it in an archive from a couple of hard drives ago, and I put it in a place I could find it again, but I don't do the RPS thing much and I wasn't sure where to post it or how to post it... and then I forgot because things have been, you know, tense lately, but anyway...HERE"S THE FIC!!!

A note of explanation about this fic - This was written during a round of discussions about how Hoot eyefucks everyone in Black Hawk Down.

Also, there was a side discussion about how great Raz Adoti is in that fic (and he was great in Gangster Number One too... really must write something about him and Paul Bettany some time...). A disucssion tht led tot he inevitable request for fic. Raz is a lovely Brit who played one the mean Somali militia leader, the one Hoot blows...up.

Anyway, Eric Bana can't help it, can he? He's got that smoldering dark gaze that fucks you whether he wants it to or not, which is okay because you, I, and every other person with a functioning libido wants to be eyefucked by Eric Bana. Especially when he's playing Hoot Gibson...

( This way to the eyefucking fic - warning ADULT content... )

It's been a while. I've been out of sorts. But I'm trying to ease my way back into things. It's a little tight. Might need more lube. Mmmm. Lube...

Title: McKnight's First Day of Retirement
Author: heartofslash
Fandom/Pairing: Post Black Hawk Down, Grimes/McKnight
Rating: ADULT
Warning: The usual kink of these two. Nothing extreme. sub/Dom
Disclaimer: Really has nothing to do with the movie. I'm kind of writing original stuff here but using the names...
Length: 200 words.

McKnight, as you may recall, decided not to risk the operation that had a 50/50 chance of restoring his hearing. He took retirement instead. And now he's exploring his limitations. Or maybe he's exploring Grimes limits.

Whatever. He's got Grimes exactly where he wants him. On his lap. Naked.

Happens right after A Day Like Today 1, And A Day Like Today 2 and Hoot's Revenge, and maybe Summer Job. Around the same time as Summer Job...

I am so fucking fragile it pisses me off.

To all my American friends and readers,

I just love your president.

I've always liked him, but then I saw the video of him calling the award show dude a "jackass", in the cutest way possible to call someone a jackass, and then I saw some bits from his interview on Letterman, like when he reminded Dave that he really was black before he got elected, and joked about finding Dave on his schedule and demanding to know who was responsible for booking the gig. His imitation of senior staffers looking down and fiddling with their Blackberries was priceless.

He is funny and intelligent and cool and suave, and he can think on his feet not only articulately but amusingly. He's a fucking rock star, that's what he is.

Also, he makes jokes about surrounding his dating daughters with men with guns. I've made jokes like that too, but alas, have never had the access to said men with guns.

And you know that if secret service types were around, the daughter would do any damn thing she wanted, since I'd be keeping the special agents occupied... but I digress.

Since we have a reactionary asshole with the personality of a wet dishrag and all the charisma of a raw turnip for a prime minister, I am ENVIOUS. *this is me envying you*

Good night.

Oops - I almost forgot - here's an excerpt from my story Black and Blue, which you can now buy from Dreamspinner Press.

And, while you're at Dreamspinner, visit MY very own page at Dreamspinner!

Check it out - cop uniforms, boots, handcuffs, a slippery nightstick, a weight bench, and unbridled NEED. I promise.

And a cock rings. Don't you just love cock rings?

Games In The Dark

OMG - published again! And in a very special book edited by my very special friend, wantonhussy!

( This is so fun it hurts, which is kinda the point of an anthology of kink and BDSM and spanking and blindfolds and restraints, and I wrote a COP STORY and everything! )

Go to Dreamspinner Press and read all the summaries and buybuybuy!!

Woohoo!

Wow, I have not been online much at all, due to work and family and visits from very important out of town personages (pir8fancier I'm looking at you) and more work and appointments... the usual. I feel not-caught-up on things, and I know no matter how hard I try, catching up is not going to happen, especially since I'm on a new medication and I'm not entirely sure how that is working out. So I don't know how long I'll be sort of out of it, but I am thinking of people and trying to keep in touch as best I can.

I hope you're all well.

PS SYTYCD Canada is terribly, terribly addictive.

I can do this. ( Cordless, no less. )

Title: Summer Job
Fandom: The Long Haul – post Black Hawk Down fuckery
Pairing: Hoot/Sanderson, Sanderson/Hulk
Warning: That was not a typo – I really meant 'Sanderson/Hulk'
Rating: Adult, for sex and recreational drug use.
Summary: Hoot and Sanderson go for a little camping trip and there is story-telling around the campfire. Sanderson gets very verbal when he smokes up. Hoot gets very mellow. Sex ensues.

Dedication: A Happy Belated Birthday to redjacket, who was away for her birthday, but she's back now. This is late but hey, I got Sanderson into the sack with a different incarnation of Eric Bana, so that makes up for it.
Inspired by: Eric Bana talked about the danger of Hulk's naughty bits flopping around if they didn't keep him in the purple pants. And Bill Fichtner makes everything better. So Hulk's naughty bits + Bill bust be good, right?

It was a stupid summer job... I worried I might go a little screwy on my own like that... Although, knowing Hoot, he'd never actually been a 16-year old virgin...

As I promised redjacket there is naked Eric Bana, and Sanderson being chatty, and HULK!SMASH... okay, maybe not smash, but he is hulking!

Title: Under Cover (Part 3 of 3)
Author: heartofslash
Fandom: Eastern Promises, sequel to Deep Cover.
Pairings: Nikolai/OFC(Lydia), Nikolai/Kirill mentioned
Rating: NC-17 overall, for explicit het sex, problematic power issues and seething resentment, and generally nasty people.
Warning: Will make no sense at all if you have not seen Eastern Promises (which I highly recommend, although be warned that it contains violence, gore, brutality and very nasty people with some very offensive ideas and habits) and read Deep Cover.
Disclaimer: Not meant to infringe on any copyright, only to expand a story I invented that was a continuation of a story I enjoyed. I own nothing. Only the writing that follows is mine.
Summary: On her own, taking a little break from life, Agent Lydia Constant has been minding her own business, thinking back on the encounter with Nikolai Luzhin that put her back in the syping game, only to discover that Nikolai has found her. At last...

Dedication: This fic is for sundew, who was my beta for Deep Cover and shares my thing for Nikolai, and who made me realize that I wasn't done making Nikolai have hetsex. Not by a long shot.

Part One was here. Part Two was here.

Part 3, the final part of Under Cover, the continuing adventures of Agent Lydia Constant and Nikolai Luzhin. 

Title: Hoot's Revenge
Author:heartofslash 
Fandom/Pairing: postBHD, The Long Haul. Hoot/Sanderson, McKnight/Grimes
Rating: NC-17
Warning: kink, bondage, taunting, confused power dynamics and sexual frustration and as close to dubcon as I'll ever get.
Disclaimer: Not real people, not even really the characters they're based on.
Summary: Sanderson kinda used Hoot in his plan to get McKnight and Grimes back together again by getting McKnight jealous of the attention Grimes might be getting from Hoot. As it turns out, Hoot doesn't like the idea of being used, so he decides demonstrate his displeasure.

( It turns out it might not have been a great idea for Sanderson to use Hoot in such a cavalier fashion, or maybe it was... )

This story follows A Fucking Order, Operation Under the Radar and A Day Like Today and A Day Like Today 2.

Title: Under Cover (Part 2 of 3)
Fandom: Eastern Promises, sequel to Deep Cover..
Pairings: Nikolai/OFC(Lydia), Nikolai/Kirill mentioned
Rating: NC-17 overall, for explicit het sex, problematic power issues and seething resentment, and generally nasty people.
Warning: Eroticization of body modification. Back away if you have a tattoo squick.
Other Warning: Will make no sense at all if you have not seen Eastern Promises (which I highly recommend, although be warned that it contains violence, gore, brutality and very nasty people with some very offensive ideas and habits) and Deep Cover, and part one of this story, Under Cover Part One.

On her own, taking a little break from life, Agent Lydia Constant has been minding her own business, thinking back on the encounter with Nikolai Luzhin that put her back in the syping game, on to discover that Nikolai has found her. At last.

Title: A Day Like Today – Part 2
Fandom: post BHD, The Long Haul
Pairings: Grimes/McKnight, Hoot/Sanderson
Rating: this part NC-17 for sexsexsex
Warnings: sub/Dom, resolution of relationship crisis, utter disrespect for the sanctity of the D-Tech office.
A Day Like Today Part 1

Grimes was having a minor amount of trouble breathing, but he didn't mind that at all. The problem was that he'd forgotten how to breathe around all that cock, but it was no big deal. Muscle memory. He would pick it up again real fast.

I know. Unbelievably I actually got it together to post some fic instead of a rant. Must be because it's a holiday.

Happy Canada Day!

Soldier porn:

Title:
A Day Like Today
Fandom: post BHD, The Long Haul
Pairings: Grimes/McKnight, Hoot/Sanderson
Rating: this part R for mature themes
Warnings: sub/Dom, relationship in crisis, substance use, poor communication, jealousy and ogling of the office manager.
Follows Operation Under the Radar.
Summary: Several months after being seriously wounded by unexploded ordinance, McKnight is out of the hospital, trying to adjust to his new situation, and not entirely succeeding. Grimes is trying his best to do his duties at work and home, and not entirely succeeding. Kurt Schmid is upset about something, Hoot can't help himself, and Sanderson takes charge.
The whole of the Long Haul series to date is here.

Grimes slowed his bicycle to a stop. He watched the line of school children cross the street. The crossing guard wore an orange vest. The air was still warm, but clear, the way he imagine it was everywhere in the fall. Everything seemed perfectly normal. Funny how the world kept going on around him, no matter what. It was enough to make a person feel insignificant, even on a day like today...

AND spy stuff:

Title:
Under Cover
Fandom: Eastern Promises, sequel to Deep Cover.
Pairings: OFC(Lydia)/Nikolai Luzhin Nikolai/Kirill mentioned
Rating: NC-17 overall.
Warning: Graphic descriptions of physical disfigurement, remembrances of het sex, problematic power issues and seething resentment, and generally nasty people
Other Warning: Will make no sense at all if you have not seen Eastern Promises (which I highly recommend, although be warned that it contains violence, gore, brutality and very nasty people with some very offensive ideas and habits) and my fanfic of it, Deep Cover.

Let's see what Lydia is up to two years and eight months after the events of Deep Cover...

Both of these are WIPs, and will be continued in the next few days, possibly even earlier.

Last weekend there was the most bizarre conversation involving two neighbours, both of whom are immigrants (from vastly different parts of the world) and who were talking in the most xenophobic, anti-immigration manner one could possibly imagine.

A little later, there was a thing with a female neighbour that was jaw-droppingly sexist.

I've come to the conclusion that just because someone belongs to a group, doesn't mean they have that group's best interests at heart. If any of these people were to be taken seriously as the only representatives of their respective 'minorities' or 'oppressed groups' or whatever you choose to call them, it would set the world back by at least 4 decades as far as equal/civil rights goes.

I still have to listen to them. Their opinions are as valid as the next person's. But it's up to ME to decide what I think is right and moral, and it's up to me to stick up for what I think is right and moral, even if they think people from certain parts of the world should be restricted from entering the country, or that lower wages for work of equal or more value are justified for whatever reason, or whatever it is they happen to be saying that makes my skin crawl. Although, I admit, it's kind of weird when you are arguing with someone who is X about how something is harmful to X, and they are telling you, "Oh, no, we don't mind at all when we don't get the same rights as other people - we're so used to it it's part of who we are!"

I don't know why these particular people hold these particular opinions.

Maybe they are self-hating. Or they hate being X.

Maybe they've been fucked over so much they don't even see that they're being fucked over.

Maybe they don't care about how other X-type people get fucked over, because they've managed to avoid a lot of the fucking over that so many other X-type people have had to endure just because they are X.

Maybe they follow some political or ideological philosophy, we'll call it Z ideology, and the oppression of X is part of Z ideology, and they feel that their membership Z somehow overrides the fact that they are X. Maybe in order to belong to Z, they've had to deny they are X - negate one identity in order to claim another.

I also don't know why they can't belong to lots of different groups at the same time. Does being one thing mean you have to stop being another? Maybe being X is inherently contradictory to being Z, in some way, so they feel a need to choose, or maybe it's easier or less confusing to choose one, rather than deal with the contradictions.

I remember the old debates about men marching in the International Women's Day event. Some poeple did not want any men present, others felt their struggle as a member of X minority group was more important or critical then their identity as a woman within that larger group. Those conundrums were never solved - they were managed in ways that would minimize harm and maximize freedom. But that freedom was not a free-for-all. Cooperation was required. Agreements had to be made, usually involving the order of the groups marching, so there would be a smaller chance of men wandering into a women-only part of the march, and that would not relegate members of a particular group to a position in the march they felt was insulting. The negotiations were not easy, and enforcement was a delicate matter, but it was worth the effort to promote inclusion.

I think it's a shame when anyone feels forced to choose any one aspect of their identity over another. And I also think it's a shame when people feel they cannot hold their own, valid opinion on something because they are not part of a group. You don't have to be a polar bear to see that global warming is bad for polar bears. You shouldn't have to be X to recognize that a particular law or action is harmful to X.

But it is possible to be X and not recognize that a particular law or action as harmful to Xs in general.

It's possible to be Z and realize that Z is not fair to X, and to try to do something about it.

It's possible to be neither X nor Z, yet still see that X and Z have issues

Identity is something Canadians struggle with in a profound way, so when Canada Day rolls around, some of us tend to tie ourselves in knots about this sort of thing. It's a curse, but one I wouldn't give up for citizenship of any other country in the world.

I fucked up on my first analogy, but try try again.

( There is a fabulous art museum! )

Does that make more sense?

( For the record... )

And I really mean it.

So I tried to make an analogy about the warnings issue, and I guess I fucked it up royally because it got completely misunderstood. My error was comparing one set disabilities and accommodations with another. You can't explain something people don't understand with something else people don't understand. I apologize for that. People tend to use things they are familiar with when making an analogy, so my analogies often involve disability, because that's the way I roll.

Well, actually, that's the way I limp.

Ha! See - we make jokes! We have a sense of humour! We're just like you! Look out, it might be catching.

Anyway,
( Here is the detailed, step-by=-step explanation of the original analogy, for anyone who is interested )

And here is my new, improved, simpler analogy, that uses ART instead of disability, and should make more sense.